Coffee drip
Coffee sip
Waiting
I want to hurry up and know
Decide and move along
Keep it black and white, up-front and honest
But life doesn’t work like that
Life’s a cloudy, hazy gray
Foamy, swirling half-and-half
If I hurry up and move
blaze forward my own trail
in independence and liberty
I will miss the best part
I will miss the sweetest part
Leaning into the Father who knows all things,
who has all things in His hands.
Why would I sacrifice that for empty clarity?
I’d rather have purpose-filled patience.
Leaning, falling, resting, trusting.
Why?
Because the legs of my own wisdom and insight
Are faulty and weak,
Shaking and quaking,
Leaving my brewing pot of coffee
Rocking, tipping, falling, pouring, crashing, shattered.
Black & white clarity
Like an A+ or a letter of acceptance, a reality of hope and knowledge
Shows me what to do
but
gray uncertainty
teaches me to rest and trust and stop blazing,
shows me how to be
how to be still and breathe in the midst of not knowing.
.
but I know that waiting isn’t forever.
and some day there will be clarity,
but even then, life will be uncertain…
so for now, I take the opportunity to rest in Him.
\ lea /