bitterness has recently gotten a hold of me,
coming when I feel slighted and entitled;
outside, I don’t mind
But inside, bitterness brews and broods:
a growing, steaming, acid smoke
that somehow makes me feel better
as I grow bitter
and pretend it doesn’t matter.
But bitterness is poison.
it seeps into the fabric of my heart and spreads,
turning my heart a pale, sick brown,
filling my veins, dissolving in my blood,
and my veins carry it from my heart
to my lungs
to the tips of my fingers
and eventually to the lips of my mouth,
and it forces out pale, sick, biting words
into the open air —
words that are hard
to take back.
Lord Jesus, take my bitterness; replace it with thankfulness.
\ lea /